Healing is an Inside Job (Part 2 of 2)
November 30, 2015 | by Michelle Meier
Every physical (external) ailment in the body has manifested from an (internal) mental or emotional conflict. You see, our bodies are always trying to communicate with us. And sometimes they have to get really loud for us to finally stop and listen.
CONTINUED FROM MY PREVIOUS BLOG: Healing is an Inside Job (Part 1 of 2)
THE SOLUTION (PART 2):
How often have you worked through stress, pain, injuries or even illness without wondering the underlying reason for it on an emotional level?
My mom battled with breast cancer NINE times over 18 years. She had the best doctors and surgeons, every possible treatment from chemo to radiation to a double mastectomy and so on. Still, the cancer kept coming back.
It wasn’t until it spread into her bones and she was given 6 months to live when she confided in me that there were emotional issues in her heart she felt she hadn’t addressed.
With the 20 years of menstrual havoc I'd had, I knew I had to understand the message behind the endometrial polyps my doctor had discovered. This way, I wasn't just treating them naturally with restorative yoga, acupuncture and plant-based progesterone--I was getting into the ROOT of the problem to heal it from the inside out.
So I dove into books like “Women’s Bodies, Women’s Wisdom” by Dr. Christiane Northrup and “Anatomy of the Spirit” by Caroline Myss, which began to illuminate the deeper root of the problem through the chakras. Chakras, if you’re not familiar with them, are wheels of energy in the body that have actually been scientifically measured. There are 7 major chakras that run from the base of the spine through the crown of the head, each one reflecting various lessons we must learn in life. Yoga helps us open them.
The uterus correlates to the 2nd chakra, which deals with relationships. This encouraged me to examine my relationships, namely with men, beginning with my relationship with my dad. My dad is an amazing father who has sacrificed himself so much for our family. He grew up in the aftermath of World War II in Berlin and, like many from that era, was stoic and hard-working. I was always trying to impress him to gain his approval. I began to recognize that I unconsciously brought this into my other relationships with men over the years.
Yearning to understand why I did this and how to break the cycle, I signed up for the Landmark Forum, a personal transformational seminar where you learn to separate what happened in the past from the “stories” you've created about it. I was shocked to witness how many stories I’d created that had led me to unfounded yet overpowering beliefs that “I’m not good enough” and “I’m not worthy of love or success.”
It amazes me the kinds of screwy things we tell ourselves on a daily basis without even recognizing it. Have you ever noticed what kinds of judgments and stories your inner voice is feeding you everyday?
Through all the digging, examining, reading, and journaling I began to let go of my unhealthy attachments and beliefs. I’m continuing with Landmark’s entire Curriculum For Living through next March; it is a work in progress but I can already see the positive impact in my life.
This process should come with a huge WARNING!! sign. The past few months have been awkward, ugly, uncomfortable, and tearful. At times I questioned what the heck am I doing?? Why am I putting myself through all this? I mean, who loves to look at the darkest parts of themselves under a magnifying glass?
But I kept praying to God, knowing that putting myself into the pressure cooker like this has opened up a whole new world of possibilities.
It’s the breakdowns that lead to breakthroughs.
One night within the first month after I’d started my treatment for the polyps, I was ripped out of my sleep from cramping menstrual pain and I tossed and turned helplessly. For hours, I couldn’t go back to sleep. I finally surrendered and placed my hands on my uterus where I felt the intense pain. I took several deep breaths and began to speak to them.
I addressed the polyps, acknowledging their presence and thanking them for the message they brought to me. I let them know I no longer needed their presence in my body, for the message was received and I was already doing the “inner work”, and so I gave them permission to leave my body.
As I did so, I felt the pain shoot from my uterus into my hips. I continued to thank them for their message and give them permission to go. I felt the pain move down into my thighs and eventually I felt it shooting out through my heels. I was dumbfounded but I never questioned it. I just trusted that they were really gone and that I was healed.
Not only have I begun to have a better relationship with myself through my self-examination, I’ve now had four painfree periods for the first time in my life without a pill and without surgery.
Tune into what your body is communicating with you on a daily basis. Trust your intuition. Be willing to dig deeper and work through your blockages. Replace negative thoughts and beliefs with positive thoughts and beliefs that will serve you to live the best version of YOU.
You, too, can heal yourself.
**For another story on how I avoided surgery by CHANGING my thoughts & words, check this out: The Power of Belief
"The soul usually knows what to do to heal itself. The challenge is to silence the mind."